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Abunai 2009:once more with feeling!

Mon, 21 Sep 2009 19:47:18 GMT

ABUNAIII xD

I've only been there saturday :( because of various reasons --->parents,parents,parents :P
Yeah they're too lazy to drive me there (we're from Belgium which is like a 2,5 hour ride) and they don't wanna stay a weekend (meaning they forgot to plan it!).

I loved it!

This was my very first con and I got the confever now I tellz ya!

I wanna go again :''( !!! I loved all the cosplayers some were SO WELL DONE xD I found another Ritsuka :D I was the one with the white (however you call it) and big tail and Asian looks xD Real life scale --->yeah I'm 1.50 m tall which is kinda Ritsuka's height *sighs*

Anyways! I totally loved it!! The acts were so much fun the cosplay was amazing!

I made friends with Rin&Len servant of evil pair and their friends who wore a pink wig and bunny ears (she was a oc character I think!).

I wanna do another con! I posted some private pics before I went to the con (I wasn't spotted probably I mean I have had photos taken but I didn't see any of them yet online so) me being pathetic xD ---> http://www.cosplay.com/gallery/163381/
yeah that's me -_-" ugh I'm such a weird one, I have a big head and lalalalal don't mind the details xD

Lyrics : English translation Imitation black (not mine, they're from youtube)

Mon, 03 Aug 2009 20:47:50 GMT

I don't really understand the lyrics very well.

I believe it's about an obsessive forbidden love.
And her/his lover betrayed him/her (insincere love, immitation)
and he/she killed his/her lover? (black for death, he/she speaks in past tense).
That's my interpretation.
And now he/she is searching for him/her within his/her memories
and dreams and eventually kills him/herself to be with him/her. x3
He/she sees him/herself as someone dark ("if the sun were to shine I'd be bothered,you'll vanish from my sight", "I should be the one punished")

twisted ordinary live
forbidden love
an insincere heart
painted over in black
an incomplete love
the jet black world

I've always wanted to say to you
There is just one thing to say
The impulse that cannot be surpressed

If it is to be broken

To love and be loved
to the point of going mad
The sweet and burning kiss is IMITATION

Senses numbing
consciousness fading away
The overflowing emotions and reality
are paint over in black

The sinking moon is
overlapping with the clouds
as if to hide the shadows

Can we not return anymore?
Let the two of us
Just disappear together

Someday I can be with you
With that believe , I let go of your hand
Is it is a love that doesn't suit me
Then it might as well be broken.

Tightly and strongly
I want to be embraced.
The warmth of overlapping bodies is IMITATION

If the sun were to shine
I would be bothered
You will vanish from my sight
PLEASE TEACH ME THE ANSWER?

Common sense and morals
crushed and destroyed.
If there are to be punishments
I should be the one punished

What you said at the end
I embrace those words

I am thinking of you everyday
The feel of your shoulder in my embrace
Before that melts away into nothing
I will go and meet you

Embraced in a quivering and wavering fantasy
What I said to you were IMITATIONs

On the cool skin
The unfading bite marks
everything and anything in my memory
are sinking into the darkness

falling away

To love and be loved to the point of madness
The sweet and burning kiss is IMITATION

Senses numbing
consciousness fading away
The overflowing emotions and reality
Paint it all over in black

English translation of Utopia (I got it from youtube so it's not mine!)

Mon, 03 Aug 2009 20:36:50 GMT

I merely changed a few words to match it more with the Japanese.
As to convey the feeling more as to how I picture it!
No worries it's still fairly original!

It's such a sad song.

The story:
It is a new era and technology is as far advanced as to transfer the human soul to new immortal,invincible ,bodies.

"the soul must be somewhere in the heart or mind so we just have to transfer these".

They transfer them to android-like bodies.

Though I suspect it's better to say they did something similar to mind uploading (which is ,roughly said, converting brain waves and such into files).
seeing an organic brain and heart are also decomposable :).Just a matter of logic xD.

Len and Rin are two lovers.
They both request to be put in these indestructible bodies.

It also explains why they look like each other, they're not twins in this version.

Rin requested her new body to look like Len's so as to proof they belong together.
But alas, when Len wakes up he feels nothing by seeing Rin when she's waking up.
Although her voice is the same... it's not Rin in there!
Len retained his human soul but Rin seems
to have lost her in the process which may be a mere accident or possible sideeffect!
Then she starts wondering what warmth, love, smiling, ... etc ... is.
He knows he has lost her and she'll never return to him again!
Things which are lost, can never be retained again!

The most frightening thing is that I actually see such a thing happen.
In the world , Ethics are always handled later on.
Some call it "necessary mistakes from which we can learn"
... are they?

the lyrics:

Looks like a new era is here
I can feel the fine wind on my skin
The nukes destroyed 6 billion of the old humanity
The city you and I lived in
Is full of people with the same face

50 years ago the United Nations proposed
The very shocking project called "the revival of humanity"

"humans are humans because of their soul!
So we'll just have to transfer that to a body that never decomposes!"
Ethics can be handled later like always

If you desire hunger at the end of hunger
Then just don't get hungry
Because you desire so much
You are always in pain and suffering

Where is my soul?
Probably in my brain or my heart
Science will overcome it!
In my so desired UTOPIA

Living flesh is such an inconvenience

The wound left from yesterday's fight with you still hurts.
Tomorrow's our turn, so I'll just have them remove that memory.
The invincible painless body is right there!
"Please make my face the same as his!When I open my eyes I want proof that we were together!"

"Your hand grabbed mine and I heard your last words
'we'll still be lovers after the surgery ,right?'"

"Yes , i will always love y..."

The brand new ear drums pick up your voice that still
sounds the same.
But I can't feel any warmth
"I wonder if something's broken?"
But then I realized with my brand new ears the thing in front of me
is not you.

"Please give her back!"
"Hurry,hurry,hurry,hurry..."

A body that never decomposes, the ideal humanity is born.
A soul that doesn't cause wars,a peaceful world is born.

"Pain, what is it?"
"Suffering, what is it?"
"Tiredness, what is it?"
"Blushing, what is it?"
"coldness, what is it?"
"warmth, what is it?"
"Love, what is it?"
"peace, what is it?"
"life, what is it?"
"I, what am I?"

the memories back then are nothing, but
vast amounts of data are gone forever,

we can't go back.

lyrics eng: trick or treat (fits to the japanese song somewhat) --> vocaloid Rin and Len by me

Mon, 03 Aug 2009 20:19:34 GMT

Trick or treat
Vocaloid: Len and Rin
Eng adaption : by me (you can kinda find a mix of the original, my style and someone else's to fit the song)

Len :Deeper , deeper you're lured into this forest my dear come here.
tempted, tempted by this sweet voice you so desperately want to hear.

Rin :faster,faster come as fast as those little legs can run to me.
Tempted, tempted,it'll be lots of fun
both: let's start our game!

len: This stick, this cinnamon stick like in a special magic trick
rin:Imagine you're all allone, lost in the sweetest syrups!
forget all that makes you cry within a dream oh so sweet.
len:They're from the hand of angels,
both:so give in and rest, my dear.

rin:Surely it won't be bad when we're drowning in these illusions.
Once the blindfold is gone, it is no fun anymore!
len:Realize, you're tied and chained kneeling humbly before my feet.
You're already captured by me, so that body hand it over, to me.

len:For some time now, the edge of doubt, surely it was hidden from our sight
Love this desire , it does not exist there is only one thing , you and me..
rin: Through a hole in the blindfold, something I thought in my life I'd never see.
Scary shadows that seem to fully bloom in the dark of the night!

Len: O my ,o my you naughty child, how dare you wake up suddenly.
rin:I see,I see your blindfold fell, Then let's blind your eyes instead?
Oh look, oh look isn't that too cute? The sweetest thing I've ever seen.
len :But you still wear those ugly lies.
both:So Let's us keep on playing.

ne, please give them to me

len:Why are you trembling before me ,did my eyes frighten you?
Do you want some warm milk tell me for you what should I do ?
rin:So, why don't you come inside then it's really warm in here.
What you have inside your pockets is already enough my dear.

both:I desire those, so hurry hurry and give them to me!
Don't you ever dare deceive me,or I'll have to punish you!
Suck on that deep sweet honey and act as if it's all been fun.
I want those, so hand it over,don't you understand ,I want it all

Hisashi buri desu ( it has been a long time I've posted xD but I'm not dead yet!)

Sat, 01 Aug 2009 11:49:18 GMT

Ah I feel kind of light headed today!
I'm on a diet :P xD well at least I try!
I gained a lot of weight this summer ...

You know I really want to return to 12 years old, that was such a happy time!
It was as if nothing in the world was harmful!
Because I was so oblivious back then (well not really but more oblivious then I am now).

But children these days have to grow up so quickly ,it feels like a crime!
As if they're robbed from their childhood!
My generation already had to deal with growing up soon at an early age!

But now looking at my two angel cousins...
don't get me wrong I love how nice and responsible those two can be.
But it's just so wrong ... I mean where's the misschieve?
The pranks?
The childhood part?

I was a little devil when I was young!

Again don't get me wrong, I truly love them.
And having myself as a kid would be asking for trouble!

But it just keeps me wondering...

Oh God another "twilight" addict.

Fri, 26 Dec 2008 23:45:14 GMT

Indeed XD I am, as many, a twilight addict.
After reading the first 2 novels I was totally hooked!
(it didn't take 2 novels to be addicted though, I've always been a vampire fan xD)

Anyways I really enjoyed it and recently got back interested after the release of the "twilight" movie!
Now I have gotten all 4 books for christmas xD,
in ENGLISH !!!
(indeed people I'm pro original writings as long as I am able to read them!).

Nyah I already read the first 2 in dutch (tranlated)
and well I decided to reread it all ,
but then in the original language so I wouldn't feel bored while reading the first two twice and because it'll feel more like a "complete" series.
But I already forgot a lot (Longgg time ago since I read those 2 ) so it's almost like reading 2 new novels x3.

So any other twilight addicts?

...The world is a bad place!

Mon, 28 Jan 2008 18:39:27 GMT

I realized just recently.
The world is worse!
I can't believe it, in a weird mood I typed the words "disaster,sadness,revenge,hate..." I typed those bad words in the google search system.
I found so many results and whatever result I clicked on, it was all as awful as the other.
A question popped up in my mind, just one stupid question "why?".
"Why is this world so painful?" I asked myself.
My face was whole gloomy and I felt so hurt at that moment.
Betrayed also.
I already knew the world wasn't as beautiful anymore as when I was still a kid!
But now, it's worse!
I feel as if I was being deceived all this time!
It's the feeling you get when you notice your best friend gossiping about you behind your back.
A small ache in the chest area, my heart felt cold at that moment.
"Why is the world such a bad place?"
I wondered.
When I was small I though the world was wonderful, so much to discover and everyone was so nice to me!
What a cruel lie!
Even when I was a little kid people weren't as "pure" as they presented themselves.
The contrary even.
Unpure thoughts, left unspoken,...they're everywhere.
People hating each other, people hurting each other with the intend to do so, shivering through every feber of their bodies!
It's so scary, I can't even comprehend such hate!

Today our history teacher also talked about "Utopia" with us.
Well actually he was just explaining what some sort of philosopher's idea was and blah blah.
But that one word kept haunting my head!
"Utopia" whenever he said that word it made me shiver.

...

Is there really a Utopia where everyone can achieve their dreams?

Manga: Scaredy-cats?

Wed, 05 Dec 2007 14:12:35 GMT

Isn't it normal that when you're a Otaku (or at least when you like a certain manga/anime) that you're not emberassed by it?
I mean I'd never deny that I love drawing manga , reading manga and watching anime.
Because that's what I like!
Some people seem to be scared of saying so.
I already told my friends, and they just told me that it's a kinda weird hobby but that it's okay =P lol.
And now they're used that I bring mangas to school.
Some even started reading Naruto and Death note because of me ^^ =P lol being Otaku is a decease I believe.
Very easily spread!
I'm just writing this for people who are scared to say they actually like manga/anime.

TIRED and school sucks...we know ^^

Thu, 15 Nov 2007 18:41:14 GMT

Ahhh I'm so damn tired!
We are getting awfully close to our exams!
The weather is SO cold!
I can't believe it!
Tomorrow history test, sheez I really don't see what the use is anymore!
I don't want to do all this!
I want to draw and go out with friends (saterday SNOWBOARDING! YESH XD)...well more then just saterday -_-"

But I can whine and whine on!
It won't help me ^^ so I'll just try to hope the best from it *sigh*

Manga: Vampire Knight

Wed, 07 Nov 2007 06:50:07 GMT

Ah I just read chapter 32 of Vampire Knight :)
It's really a great manga!
I'd love to buy it but I can't really get it here.
So I feel kinda like a culprit, downloading it or read it online!
I'll be sure to buy all volumes as fast as I can find them.
For now I'm reading it on simplemanga.com or onemanga.com :s
I really feel bad about it...Oh well...

Vampire knight:

Yuki Cross is the leading character.
She goes to a school named Cross acadamy (after her father,...well she's adopted dunno how your father is called then :P)
It looks like a normal school to anyone visiting.
But as fast as day makes place for evening another class is opened.
The night class.
All the students from the night-class seem to be perfect!
They're beautiful, sportive and smart.
But what the day-class students don't know is that these idols are in fact vampires!
Yuki and Zero are the ones to border the night from the day class and protecting them from each other this way.
In order to achieve the principal's dream, namely for Vampires and Humans to live together!
Yuki has a crush on the head of the Vampires, Kaname.
Kaname also seems to have some feelings for Yuki as well.
But what are they?
And why Yuki?
And what explains Zero's immortal hate for all bloodsuckers?
Just read it ;) it's really good!

Manga: Beauty pop

Tue, 06 Nov 2007 15:43:17 GMT

Heh when I first saw beauty pop's cover I thought "GOD NO" but now I'm reading it and it's least to say GREAT!
Really it's a good manga with a relaxed main character! (I love that girl....If you want to picture me then picture me with such a personality...But I just don't posses any talent to be confident about and I'm super-lazy :P)

For those who'd like to know what the hell I'm blabbering about:

It's basically about a girl who's a genius with scissors, she' s a genius barber :)
In her school are three guys the SP and they're specialized in doing extreme make-over for girls garuanteeing a 100% chance for love :)
The genius (just call her that you'll have to read the manga for the rest :P) fixes a few girls their love life by doing a make-over for them as X which is kinda her alter-ego.
X is forced to compete against the barber of the SP and from then on the story starts to develop ^^ with very interesting possibilities .

I would say just go buy it :o...IF you understood anything I wrote just now :P

Sat, 13 Oct 2007 12:15:32 GMT

Death note ^^ hehe my fav deviantart.com artist is SILENTREAPER!!!
GOD her comics are like...THE TOP OF COMEDY!!!
this one is one of my fav's ^^

Hey there ^^

Wed, 10 Oct 2007 17:28:17 GMT

Ahh oww oww I am now totally into drawing animals!
I'm also planning to learn how to draw buildings...
Those are a few skills you need when you want to become a manga artist ne?
I also started art-classes again this year!!! =D so I can finally draw in group, of course it isn't manga =( but it still teaches me great techniques.
And there's this girl in my class who drew a horse's head!!!
BEAUTIFUL really talented, but I wanted to kick her so badly when she told me she hated drawing and had no interest in that field of work for the payment is small!
I was SOOOO angry what I would've given to be able to draw like her!
Stupid b*tch seriously if you have talent then go develop it!
No instead she decided to make me jealous!!! well I already was but then in a supporting way.
Sighh ... this worrying and angering is just troublesome v_v for someone as lazy as me...
I shouldn't stress too much =).
So I'm still planning to become a mangaka/ voice actress.
Let's see what future brings.
Of course voice acting is hard and becoming a mangaka too!
I'm not even half as good as I should be!
But I have enough ambition to go on! (maybe lacking the talent I don't care).
Well if it becomes troublesome I just have to "try" to get it done ^^

Soo...

Sun, 12 Aug 2007 19:26:59 GMT

I'm reading Ichigo100% at the moment ^^
It's a really great manga!
You know sometimes I read a manga and then I think "how come it isn't famous yet?" there're mangas with a LOT more story in it then...take Beyblade (no offence) I mean why is it that only Komokoro (manga for children age 6-10= Pokémon,...) travels so far?
Maybe it's just the western brain whom is branded on cartoons=children movie=adults!
That's just stupid!
Maybe it's just my Indian (dunno how people from india are called :P) blood.
But I'm very open for a LOT of cultures (especially the Japanese of course ^^).
*sigh* it's been a tough time for me.
I kind of abandoned my friends for this summer break.
Because I really needed a break from social life also.
It's no easy being me you know!
Most people are social and actually ENJOY it.
I'm social because I HAVE to.
Most people at my school are so shallow minded.
For my language I have a very large vocabulary.
I KNOW!
Meanwhile I could make perfect dutch sentences when I was 2 years old (meaning I was in Belgium for 1/2 year beacuse I was adopted).
So in half a year I learned a whole new language...SO WHAT?
It's not like a crime is it?
Most of my classmates get angry with me or think I'm laughing at them because I have a more extended vocabulary then them.
And they think I'm fooling them by being ignorant on daily stuff!
Like cooking or cleaning (no idea how to make an egg without burning the kitchen ^^").
I just have a lot of common knowledge through reading,through watching docu's (yes I love watching docu's!),...
It's just when there's something which interests me I'm ready to really GO for it!
NO, I'm not a girl with glasses, giant pimples and stuff like that!
I'm just normal.
Not a GEEK like most people would think when they read this ^^.
But I AM small.
I'm just 1.50m a lot of people around me say it's cute.
But I think it's rather troublesome.
Especially when people keep repeating that I'm small as if I'm some sort of dwarve or something.
...
BUT THAT WAS NOT THE POINT!
It's just that I can never relax when I'm social!
I always have to watch what I say, I always have to keep my ...SMARTASSMOUTH (is that even a word?) for myself and I should shut up about the things I actually like.
Like manga,drawing,mythologies,culture,just..
I like to gossip (be fair who doesn't even a little?) but that's the ONLY thing people do!
It's as if there is nothing else except their own little teenage world!
In which I'm not really interested!
Who cares that Paris Hilton just fucked 3 men at one night?
Who cares that...Lindsay Lohan is a fucking junk!
Who cares that ,that girl from class C loves that guy from class B???
I mean alright if I knew those people but...
I don't!
So what's the whole point?
I accept the fact that they're interested in that.
I sometimes even dare to read such a tabloid from my sister!
But that's just to keep track with my "friends" they never keep track with me!
Okay they're funny! And I love to laugh.
But that's it!
For the rest I HAVE to be social so I won't become some sort of outcast.
That would be troublesome!
...
Okay so I decided to just...SURVIVE and suffer through this sh*t until I can find people whom I'm actually also interested in!
Without being forced to be!
Meanwhile now people only like a part of me.
The funny and open one.
But I'm afraid they'll neve accept my other side.
Not that I have a real DARK!!! side but just.
another side of me ^^ sheez I don't know if you people understand!
Only my sister and my cousin do!

Ah another day!

Wed, 08 Aug 2007 11:39:38 GMT

I'm really slacking off!
I should work some more on my drawings.
I know I'm not good at that stuff!
I tried to draw a snake, a parkeet (sp?), and a crow.
I already drew the wolf.
I just need to draw a horse and a cat from all angles like I did with the other animals.
It's for my current project called menokami.
(which should be read as kami no me= eye of God but Menokami=God of eye *makes no sense btw* sounded nicer ^^).
So these animals are the guardians.
The guardians are humans whom transform in animals to protect Menokami (Meno-kun for friends).
Ah weird idea I know!
But hey it's my idea and I like it (kinda).
I decided finally for the animals but,
But I still don't have a personality for the horse!

So the wolf is a girl, hot tempered.
Yet not the idiot to just jump into action!

The snake is smart,sly and keen.
Also very good at reasoning.

The parkeet is a happy go boy whom acts before he thinks and the crow is the silent and observative twin of the parkeet.

The cat'll be a hot tempered girly girl, whom is good at agility and tricks.

So now the horse guy...
Horses are rarely hot tempered or aggressice huh?
So a kinda guy?
Or maybe I make this guy a fiery stallion?
I really have no idea yet.

Suggestions???

Bleach

Tue, 07 Aug 2007 14:51:05 GMT

I'm currently hooked on a manga called bleach.
It reminds me kinda of Naruto though.
I mean Ichigo's haircut is like Naruto.
Ishida Uryuu REALLY reminds me of Sasuke Uchiha.
But aside of that I dunno... it's REMINDS me of Naruto.
It's not really THAT similair.
But really Uryuu is like Sasuke (though he's less serious and more loyal for as far as I'm reading I'm somwhere at ch 114 ^^).
He also has the same voice actor as Sasuke :o.
OMG!!
Noriaki Sugiyama!!!!
He's one of my favourite voice actors.
To be honest he isn't really incredibly handsome.
But he has a GREAT voice.
It has this relaxed thing in it.
He can say "nice weather ne?"
While sounding like "You're troublesome leave me alone!".
Morikubou shoutarou (sp?) is also one of my favourite voice actors.
Aside from Shikamaru in Naruto he also voiced Kadaj in final fantasy!!!
Then Junko Takeuchi doing that guy (Takuya...I forgot the name -_-" ?) from digimon frontiers,Naruto Uzumaki and of course GOn from HunterXhunter ^^ (yep I notice such irrelevant stuff :P).

My sis is out for today (YESHHH!!!!) she's with our niece.
they're probably planning to do a sleepover at my niece's house.
Which I find PERFECT!
Hah I can relax now!
And tomorrow (or next week :P) I'm going to Antwerpen (yep that's a city in Belgium) with my dad.
It's pretty far away from where I live.
But I don't care.
Because in Antwerpen lies the DragonToys...okay I forgot the name.
But it's a store where they sell LOTS of Manga.
Dragontoys (just call it dragontoys that's all I could remember from the name) also has a store in Brussels ,which is the capital of Belgium, that one is MUCH bigger.
But I won't whine!
Beggars can't be chosers after all *sigh*.

Okay now I have this thing worked out!
Yep I'm finaly planning to do something with my worthless life!
I'm going to work hard at school and pass the coming years with good grades for languages as french,dutch,english and german!
So I can go to Gent
(yep another city in Belgium
By the way the cosplay groups ABUNAI has cosplayed on a convention over there...)
Gent's university provides Japanology as a subject!
After graduating (IF I graduate of course) I want to go to Japan for a year to live and study the language and such.
So I can become a translator and work with Kana which is company whom provides manga in Belgium!
Yep It's all there in my head.
And when I have enough money I'm going to Japan to live over there!
No really NO joke!
Ahhh it sounds troublesome...I'm lazy remember.
But Aww...I guess it's just a sacrifice I have to make for this dream to come true ^^
I'm planning to keep this journal as long as possible...
So nehh... just stick with me till then!

vacation

Tue, 31 Jul 2007 08:04:03 GMT

Yeah well my computer sorta crashed (damn!) *sigh* so I have to use th computer of my parents.
But they don't like it when I'm using it (they think I'll crash this one too talk about trust!) A bummer really!
Awww well.
I read the manga fruits basket (AGAIN!) and I watched some Gundam Seed vid's (SOOo cute when they're chibi's!!!)
Vacation passes too fast!
I usually relax, go out ,write, sleep (SLEEP!!!), draw manga, listen to music (=relax), and...daydream (=relax),... Ahhh vacation I love it!!!

Manga

Sat, 28 Jul 2007 19:12:23 GMT

I have this new obsession.
Well new, Actually it's rather old!
I'm 14 turning 15 at 10th December of this year (2007).
When I was in my first year in high school (or whatever you name it just when I was 12 turning 13)
I discovered that these characters and monsters I was constantly drawing were actually part of a style!
I found out that it was called Manga and that the cartoon version is called anime!
I was totally stunned when I found out!
I surfed the internet and quickly became addicted to the anime fruits basket!
Which was at that time my first (shoujo so not komokoro or whatever it is named) anime I ever saw.
The only animes released in Belgium, which became pretty popular, were the anime Pokémon and Digimon.
Which I fell for around the age of 6, especially Pokémon from whom I have all the games (well from every series)!
I remember clearly the time when me and my cousin
(Sebastian whom is the actual idiot to tell me the style was called manga thus creating this insane obsession)
ran around the house acting as our favourite trainer or Pokémon!
We had this game where we went to catch Pokémon in the different rooms (which became through our imagination different countries) of his house.
At that time playing in his house was much more fun seeing it was bigger then ours!
At that time he was also my only true friend together with my sister and his sister!
I still have this feeling that they are just as much a brother and sister to me as my sister is!
I invented new Pokémon and we drew them together!
When I was 11 years old a friend of mine ran into class with this new idea for art hour which was held every Friday after lunch!
He brought this book from the library called "how to draw Manga" from Kathy Cooper.
We drew the first character in the book I was so happy to share my knowledge with whole the class!
I tried , in vain, to get my hands on that book ever since.
But there was always someone whom took it.
Finally I got a hold of it and I used it so long that they (the library) almost thought I lost it and said I should pay the book back!
But as I drew the characters out of the book I noticed that every Mangaka also had a different style (DUHH!!!! But I've always been too stupid to notice such relevant stuff!).
So I scammed through my Pokémon sticker collection and tried to find the quirks which every Pokémon held and which I could say was part of the Mangaka's style.
I did the same with Digimon from whom I , still, have some action figures from!
As I surfed through the net another anime fuelled my already raging Manga obsession!
Naruto from Masashi Kishimoto!
That man became (and still is) a God for me!
I watched the anime fully until the fillers (which to my opinion was just irrelevant!).
I drew and traced every character (even the crowd) from Naruto and happily created my own characters!
My cousin introduced me to Gundam Wing.
(A series which will always be engraved in my mind).
Aside from fighting space guys changing into supersaiyans and ninja's with demons sealed inside there were also deep Manga's whom dealt with problems as war and heartbreak in such a way without boring?
Heaven again!
Of course drawing Mecha was just idiocy on its own but I tried!
And of course drawing Hero Yuy and co. was on my list every day.
When I thought heaven was already on earth my cousin introduced me to Gundam Seed and Seed Destiny!
At first I wasn't really hooked though.
I was around my 3rd year ( 14 going 15 yep!) when I finally decided to throw everything I have to the series.
With Cagalli Yula Athha (which my cousin says I act alike) as my favourite character!
Around my 2nd year (I was 13 turning 14) years old I went to Leuven with my father to buy ,with the money I saved that time, as many Manga as I could! (I never felt something like that towards my father in my whole life, pathetic I know)
I ended up with Naruto Manga up to 7 or so copies, two volumes of rurouni Kenshin, the first volume of Tsubasa, the first dvd of the anime HunterXHunter and the 5th dvd of Gundam Seed and a copy of the only anime/Manga/J-pop Magazine in whole Belgium, Aniway!
It wasn't that much.
But for me it felt as heaven.
Also after reading Aniway, I was so happy to find that other people from this country adores Manga as much as I do.
For living in Belgium and having Manga as a hobby is quite a lonely hobby!
The only people I can (yes even now) seriously chat with about Manga are people from the Vs, Canada, Japan, England and some from the Phillliii....okay I can't spell it!
But just from those countries and never close by!
I'm currently hooked on Naruto Shippuuden, Vampire Knight, Rosario Vampire,(Yes I LOVE Vampire stories!), Dn Angel (Ahhrrg C'mon Yukiru-san please finish it!),Ouran high school host club, Rurouni Kenshin (another man I adore as a God), Say hello to Black Jack (A Mangaka whom deserves respect) and many other! (Too lazy to write them all down but the major ones are there , though I don't have a real order in favourites!).
At least an end to my Manga ranting?
HAH!
I decided to actually DO something with the space I have here and dedicate my blog to Manga.
And some other subjects of course.
But the MAJOR will be Manga.

Sheez I hate school

Wed, 21 Feb 2007 04:03:39 GMT

Really only thinking of the subject makes me sad.
I mean it spoils all the fun.
Imagine a WHOLE week vacaction and then poof a TOn of homework thrown at your feet.
Do ya know that most people whom became famous where teachers or something?
That means those people have FAR TOO much time.
They just give assignements and then do whatever they want.
And they can easily correct cuz the friggin book lies in front of them.
I know this is unreasonable and stuff but now I'm just anry :(!!!

I HATE FRIDAYS

Fri, 19 Jan 2007 23:59:02 GMT

I love the fact that they declare the end of the week...still.
Well okay fridays are fun except they CAN be boring.
Today we had X-mos that's when all the students in the last year are going to celebrate the fact that they are going to leave this jail which they renamed school.
So a teacher could JUST sqeez some time before all the 6th graders are going to run true the hall's with flutes.
Yeah and she used this stupid time to make a test.
Blaahhh!!! I was TO exited so I probably failed this one (not that I care ^^).
Okay now back to X-mos.
So we all went to dining-hall *tries to use formal language*¨and the show started.
Basicly it existed out of making fun of teachers.
Like our well known teacher mister Jos Colaer.
He has a profile on a Dutch dating side.
Rendez-vous.be
and ofcourse we couldn't have that one asside.
Neither they left the painfull subject alone of the hhc (shorter version of our school name) pedo.
Yes dear readers there's a pedo among the teachers.
He had a relationship with a student of his (he's 28 and she was like...17 max) and he currently dated a 19 years old.
Well after awhile it got boring but everything was okay as long as we didn't had lessons ^^.
Then we had an hour of sleeping (aka math).
Then fun begins.
People slowly start to wake up from they're slumber.
That's when we have history.
M was playing with L's tipp-ex.
And cause L wrote M Stinks on it he began to destory the object under his feet.
Then a ring came lose which he put after playing with it for a while around his finger.
Meanwhile we all were automaticly copying the blackboard we also watched the fight of M with the ring.
He couldn't get it of his finger XD.
Then dutch lessons began.
Yeah our classes fav.
Cause WHOLE our class hates the teacher we all go against her.
That's when fun starts.
So M was still in a fierce fight with the ring.
L was laughing her head of.
K was sleeping.
B and An where hyperactive as usual.
Then the teacher came in.
My best friend Ma asked to go to the toilet so did I and Mer.
teacher: no
Ma: but c'mon what if I pie my pants?
teacher: I don't care you can't go to the toilet we discussed this in the council we aren't accepting this annymore...BLAHblah
Mer: but what if it has to do with woman stuff?
K*begins to wake up but still doesn't know what the subject is about*: Yeah
Me: C'mon just let us go to the....
teacher * finally sees that we aren't paying attention to her little inner fight*: NO AND NO WORD I DON'T WAN TO HEAR IT...
Me to Ma: do you have to go urgent?
Ma: DUHH!!!
Me: then write it down.
Ma: writes down please let me use the bathroom xxx Ma.
She shows the teacher and guess what?
teacher: get over here and give me your agenda.
Ma:Why?
teacher:I don't accept this behaviour in our school.
L: Why? she just asked if she could use the..;
teacher: I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT....
M still tries to get the ring of his purple/ red and swollen finger.
M: Uhmm can I PLEASE go to the secretary?
teacher: NO and why?
M:Cause my finger is dying away *shows purple to dark blue finger*
teacher: NO, YES go to the secretary...shut up NO...
everyone:....????....
teacher: *sighs* just go.
M leaves class room.
teacher: be quit Mi.
Mi:....
teacher: MI SHUT UP
B and An: She didn't say annything.
teacher: but I heard noise from THAT corner.
Me: That isn't a reason to assume that Mi was the one who said something.
teacher: WHO SAID YOU COULD TALK ANNYWAYS???And I don't want a discussion just...shut up!!
*M comes back in with a whole red finger*
M* smiles proudly* I got the ring un-stuck on my way to the secretary.
An begins to applaud.
teacher: MI GET OVER HERE WITH YOUR AGENDA!!!
Mi: But I didn't do annything.
teacher: OKAY THAt'S IT EVERYONE YOUR HAVING A TEST!!!
everyone: WHAT?
teacher: you heard me! take a leaf and write down ...
well the test was EASY so it wasn't a real punishment.
Then when the lessons are over.
teacher: Ma and M you'll wait here.
An and Me are waiting in front of the door.
teacher: Ma and M I can't accept....BLAH BLAH...and M I can see at your grades...BLAH BLAH...detention next time it occurs.
Me: uhmm miss...Ma has good grades and why are you only telling her and Ma that they have dettention next time?
teacher: I meant the whole class.
Me: yeah that's what I mean.
An,Ma and M leave the classroom and go home.
Me* attempts to go but hears teacher say stuff about her parents*
Me: why are you talking about my parents?
teacher: I wasn't talking about your parents I don't know these people don't assume things...(repeats same sentence 6 times)
Me: I KNOW you don't know them but it still doesn't take away you DID talk about them.
teacher: your hallucinating, don't assume things....BLAH BLAH
Me: I don't assume annything
teacher: YES YOU DO
Me: roles eyes whatever * walks away out of annoyance*

hehe that's a normal friday in our class.
I mean that woman can't talk her language fluently and now she's teaching it? That's the most idiotic set-up EVER!!!
Ah to lazy to correct all the grammatical errors in this one =)

HERE I AM AGAIN :D

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 19:57:23 GMT

Austria was great.
There was a big pool with three bubble-tubs (dunno what it's real name is actually -_-')
I slept a lot and heard a lot of stories from my dad's friend.
Who thought he could be intresting?
And dad and he almost fought hehe yeah for sure they had a discussion about the fact that in a cheaper store the tast is diffrent then that one in a more known one.
My dad said the tast and quality is diffrent, not better or worse but diffren while my dad's friend said it was the same.
then I went to sleep cause it was boring.
They just DIDN'T stop.
Snowboarding was better now we even went to slopes whom weren't suposed to be opened yet.
Hehe imagine a WHOLE slope for yourself!!!
I also have a lot of bruises but hey gotta take it e :).
AHHHRgg school started again...I feel SO sad right now.
I really hate school.
It spoils whole the fun.
Hehe I know I'm suposed to be 14 and bear with it.
But c'mon be real.
WHAT AM I SUPOSED TO DO OVER THERE?
I know what.
You guys don't know me so it's safe to tell my dream here.
I want to become a mangakana/voice-actor.
Does it sound stupid to you?
I don't care I want to become that.
It's my dream and no-one can stop me.
I won't tell anyone cause it sounds unrealistic stupid huh?
I know, But I'll try.
I'll study for a stupid boring job.
I'll work awhile and safe the money to pay a language cours (Japanese) and the I'll make my BIG TRIP to Japan.
I'll buy a house in Tokyo.
And I'll take Manga drawing lessons and try to get my voice in animes.
=D Everyone would laugh at me for my dream.
But that's my dream.
And when I'm old I want to write down.
I want to write down the important things in my life.
All in drenched in a story.
I'll hope I can make my dreams true.
And I'll try to keep this journal for a long time.
=) then you'll see what happens to my dream.
I'm curious to, I wonder wat future would bring.
I hope not To much trouble cause hehe I'm lazy ^^

vacation

Fri, 29 Dec 2006 20:39:30 GMT

yeah!!
today at 3 o'clock I'm heading towards Austria.
Yeah people I'm going to snowboard!!!
Hehe yeah really it IS fun considering that at one of our many ski-vacations we made a lot of noise in a room.
We were acting silly ya now XD.
Then after a while we hear someone ramming the door screaming "SHUT UP GODDAMMIT AND OPEN THE DOOR".
So my courageous friend did.
Then a man walked in...TOTALLY NAKED!
Wf! were my friends reactions mine was sh*t hide!
Sheez I was scared like hell so I hide under the bed.
The man didn't see me so he began to scream at my friends.
Really scary.
My sis and her friends heard from another room.
They stood in front of they're door with jaws dropped,they're jaws could almost reach the floor!
Even a ski-instructor saw and that chicken didn't save us from that big,fat Rhino nope...She just hide in her room thinking it wasn't the right moment to go downstairs.
Yeah so after a while the guy left us alone.
Really what did that guy do?
Why didn't he just...wore a pants or something?
I mean even IF he had sex he still could go with pants on do NOT traumatize innocent children (*cough,cough*).
hehe believe me trips like these Are worth it!
Like the time me and a friend went to ski-lessons.
My friend HATES it so he skied away.
And guess what,...I had an even MORE retarded brain back then and skied after him.
Then the ski-instructor turned around and saw no Amber nor her friend.
I think the guys freaked out cause in the evening when we were in the hotel he was glaring at us WHOLE the time.
Luckily that was the LAST day of the week.

Hopefully I'll get a lot MORE stories from this trip.
Hehe oh and this night we went to the 'Borrel' that's a café where my parents go allot.
This time they bribed us with them.
Cause I HATE! it and my sis is a pirates of the caribbean addict and wanted to watch the movie...AGAIN!
So when I went in they all went "AWWW" I was more like o_O.
They were saying OH SHE CHANGED and stuff like that.
I was scared of these people REALLY!

Now I have to SLEEP!
XD
So I'll have enough rest for the coming trip.
Goodnight,sleep tight, don't let the bedbugs bite (lol I don't even know if you're going to sleep)

BORING!

Wed, 27 Dec 2006 00:24:47 GMT

Yeah today was kinda boring.
Tomorrow I'll be going for three days to my aunt and then I'm going on a vacation.
Hehe so I won't be bored then.
Today was kinda odd.
I went to bed around 9 o'clock and around 1 o'clock I go get some drink and update my live journal and stuff.
I know when my father finds out,...gulp -_-* I'm dead meat.
If I'm very quit he won't find out.
And I have to delete every trace of me being on the computer.
Though I think he doesn't know my password (of my lap-top) and I don't really think my father knows what a back-up file is hehe...
This night my cousin,uncle and aunt came to visit.
As a very late X-mas dinner.
I stayed with them for 2 hours, got sick (NOT =p) and went to bed.
Why they're so late?
We hadn't the REAL family dinner with them.
Cause well we aren't really related ya know.
They're close friends but we ACT like we're family,like on school and stuff if they ask us we're cousins.
We just say yes acting like REAL ones (annoying parts included).
Heck! I aint even related FOR real with my family.
I was adopted so...that situation is kinda weird.
When I was 1 year and a half I went to Belgium.
From my birth I was an orphan cause my biological mother couldn't take care of me.
Now I'm living a princess life and HELL I enjoy every bit of it XD .
Normally I would be in Belgium earlier before age 1 I think.
But I had Polio (paralyze which can occur by children).
Yeah my leg carried the sickness.
But they could heal it.
Though I'll never be able to become outstanding in any sports.
And running stair is HELL!!!
You can't really tell I have it.
Until I begin to blabber about my history (like now) or when I TRY to run very fast.
Cause then I kinda have the urge to pace my right leg differently from left my leg.
My right is cause of the polio 1cm shorter.
Not that I mind cause I have NO handicap.
Or at least not one which you can call so (except of my mental thingy hehe I'm pure evil and stuff XD .

I'm so fucking tired

Tue, 26 Dec 2006 02:54:17 GMT

I know my posts sucked till now but well I'm trying to find my way in here =p
Yeah and as the title says I'm fucking TIRED =p...
Ahhrgg still I don't wanna sleep I wan't my day to go as long as possible for holidays sake.
I know I'm a freak and stuff just lemme be =).
Well I'm planning to use this live thingy a lot so get used to my babbling already.
Hehe for christmas I got a I-pod of 8 gb (I REALLY don't know what to do with 8GB), singstar rocks,singstar 80's,a LOT of checks for the extra zona and such game/cd stores.
I allready bought the cd of panic! at the disco and I wanna go buy...I dunno =)...
christmas is a bless to us all believe me thought I hate to admit but I kinda LOVE my family <3 SO many freak on 1 place that just HAS to be a rocking experience.
Well hopefully my next posts won't be this crappy and boring.
I know my writing style bores the hell outta everyone =p...

What's this about?

Tue, 26 Dec 2006 02:34:25 GMT

Yeah this was how my facial expression went after I finally found out WHO was behind the stupid pranks.
Okay you can't follow?
Here's the story.
Christmas eve.
Family.
A HELL LOT OF COUSINS (I can't even remember all there names really NO kidding).
a-social cousin and a fun one.
So me and fun cousin go prank on a-social cousin.
Something innocent like poke him with a carrot against the ear after watching scary movie (remember the dick true ear thingy? hehe)
Well soon me and fun cousin got bored.
So we went to prank some other family members.
They didn't complain cause they were used to us =p
Then the stupid prank and then my facial expression I know this thingy Sux but it's more to test this life journal thing then to...well ya know REALLY SAY something =p